Dear Blog,

It is sad when your roommate randomly leaves to go visit her boyfriend while you sit...alone in the room writing a paper and wishing that you could do the same. Sometimes i wish that i could just make my mind blank of all the things that it thinks about so that i could just do my hw. but i know that this is not possible so i just write about it in hopes that one day it will happen, though very unlikely. on friday i totally broke down. i didnt know that so many things were bothering me. when i start to cry for one reason, i always end up crying about other things at the same time because i'll think of them too. so it just turns into a huge crying fest and only i'm invited. and when i cry, i just want to be held. but most of the time the people that i want to be held by are not near...so that makes me cry more. it's just not pretty. and it seems that every weekend when i go home, i cry for one reason or another. i hate it. so i had a depressing weekend. and the best part is that i get to have another horrible and even longer weekend for thanksgiving break. YES! oh man, i'm going to die. i dont know how i'm going to do it for christmas break and even worse, summer. i cant even think about it now or i'll go crazy. there are so many things that i have to force myself to not think about or else i would be constantly crying. that's life.