Getting in touch with my earth tones

it's so depressing to think about how much things have changed just within that last almost year and a half since i graduated high school. how much people change..(and not always for the better). i try so hard to keep in touch with the friends that i had and i get nowhere. i wish that people cared as much as i do about continuing the relationship that we had. i know that people are busy with school and work and the new atmosphere of college, but i dont think that it should be a reason to completely forget about the past. i dont know...there's a word... melancoly?..where you long for the past.anyways, i think that's the word i would use to describe myself. i'm always thinking about the fun times i had and how i no longer have them. a little sad, yes..but that's just how i am. i'm getting better at not calling people to see if they want to play, but it still hurts.(sign).
on a brighter note: i saw Noise Ratchet on saturday and they were super. i like them..i bought a t-shirt(which i am currently wearing), a cd and i "permanently borrowed" a poster that was on the wall. they're playing tonight in hollywood, but i have class from 7-9:30 and i already missed that class once and it's a once a week class..blah! but see, it was worth it becuase the roommate and i had tons of fun throwing empty water bottles tied to string at people out of the window. the end.
OH, and i absolutely love kids. i had soooo much fun at my community service last night. i was covered in stickers by the time i got back to my room, but i loved it! i love reading to them and playing with them and just spending time with them.( sign) <--happy sign
thank you for flying Air-Jennyfer and please watch your step as you disembark the aircraft.